Turning over a new leaf!

Does it make me terrible because I don't brag at least daily about my child? I'd like to think I am a great mom and that I love my child just as much as any other mother who does brag constantly about her child. Seems I do more whinning than anything when it comes to this blogging thing. Maybe that means its time to turn over a new leaf and focus more on bragging. I mean after all who wouldn't want to brag about my little man? He is just too cute for words! I am getting more and more excited for our move with every day that passes. Can't say I am all too excited at the thought of cooler winters again but feels like now there ain't nothing I can't handle! I am just looking foward to seeing/touching/talking to in person Shane FINALLY! I am also very thrilled at the thought of exploring a new place, living in a bigger house even if it doesn't rightfully "belong" to us by ownership standards, getting back into an actual routine, SEEING LENETTE, and the list goes on!! Time to move foward and not dwell so much on the negative which I obviously can't change or control any more!

ENOUGH ALREADY...the move is on...FINALLY!!!

So its official we are moving...finally going to be back together as a family again after just shy of three LONG months apart. We are going to be renting a house in ELizabeth City, NC. Our move dates are set up for September 14th and 15th. And if all goes well Cameron and I will arrive depending on any stops to be made on the way up there from Florida by weeks end at the latest. No news on the house yet. The lawyer keeps trying to reassure me that we are and I quote "further along than you realize". I will leave it at that. I have a realtor who likes to strike up conversation and stir the pot so to speak leading to panic in my mind just when I think things are going okay which leads to panicked phone calls and emails to the lawyer and his assitant...let me assure you that I am certain they both LOVE that. But seriously what am I supposed to do. I think I have been VERY VERY patient thus far. They haven't seen the worst of me.
But anyway, I am ITCHING to get the show on the road...I just want to be where my husband is right now. I am surrounded by lots of akwardness, feeling I don't belong in Florida because not much is left for us there anymore and don't belong back in the area that I grew up in anymore because aside from my immediate family and my best friends all that is left there is bad or painful or embarrassing memories. Shane and Cameron...our little family is where I belong. I just need us to be with Shane, where we are physically feels better when he is there too. I need to start put our life back together...on the road to recovery even though this situation with the house feels like its still only at the beginning. I need to try to get back to work at least a little bit and get us out of this financial rut of living tightly from paycheck to paycheck. And I think Cameron could use some time with other children to build some healthy social skills. I am so over being in limbo.

At least Cameron knows how to have fun!

Well I bet it was assumed I was going to let another year go by before writing something again, huh? Well the rollercoaster ride with the house in Florida continues although we have now come to the straight part of the track meaning there is nothing to do as usual but sit and wait...and wait...and WAIT. Quite frankly it sucks. We have now been forced into doing things that are against what we have worked hard our whole life to avoid...against what we know and have been taught is right. Thats right...the bank unfortunately only sees things as black or white meaning you either pay your mortgage or you don't and if you don't you obviously become a high priority in their mind. Translation we have to stop paying the mortgage.
As for home life, gets more exciting every day. I am discovering the joys of raising a toddler. Endless battles with him attempting to keep him away from electronics, power outlets, television remotes, telephones, etc all the while dealing with the temper tantrums that result from telling him no at least 3 times and removing him from the object of his temptation are the story of my day. And now today I saw the humor in it...after hearing the toilet lid in my bathroom slam shut and realizing that my little guy had wandered away into my bedroom while I had my back turned picking up his mess, so obviously I go to investigate. And what do I find? Of course the battery powered toy phone he was just playing with is now at the bottom of my toilet bowl still singing and lit up and Cameron is standing at the side of the toilet reaching into the water trying to fish it out. So of course I have to go pull his hand out and grab the toy out of the water with my bare hand, all the while I am fighting to keeping him from putting his hand back in and the water is leaking out of the toy on to the floor, the tub and my bare feet...ewwww! Just one of many adventures to come in life with Cameron.